Cause he is the truth, Said he is so real/ and I love the way, that he makes me feel!!!!

These are my babies…no I don’t have kids…but these two are amazing!!! Through anything they always make me smile. These are my boys, always!! Crazy and all… I think my fav part about this Memorial day weekend was our watergun fight…haha we had it going like we were on Call of Duty!!! LOL!! My boys are THE best!!

My birthday was amazing….inspite of it all

Baby, I need you in my life..

This view was everything to me today!!!..I felt so comfortable…just a get away, with nothing to worry about, nobody to really say anything to me. Just me and my thoughts, a pen and a notebook…as I jot everything down to clear my mind. Some tears flow as I understand life is what I make it.. Happiness is what I want. Future is my destination and where I am headed. This right here is just a minor setback but Ima be alright! :) it is what it is…thats the motto! Aha

(Boy you know that I love.)
Boy I love you.
With him that was lust..
Shouldn’t have happened
I know I messed up…
One phone call started this whole thing now…
look at the damage.. damage..
look at the damage..

Damage.. damage that I caused you.
I know I broke your heart, ‘cause I did you wrong.
Look at the damage, look at the damage that I caused..

Will he… will he still remember me?
Will he still love me even when he’s free?
Or will he go back to the place where he would choose the poison over me?

When we spoke yesterday,
He said to hold my breath and sit and wait
“I’ll be home so soon, I won’t be late”

He won’t go
He can’t do it on his own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
He’s willing to take the risk

So I won’t go
He can’t do it on his own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
I’m willing to take the risk

Now lets talk about today, well Thursday - Today!!! 4-8-12 lmao. Today was dope!!! Resurrection Sunday one great day. Me and my cuzzos Turnt it up LIVE this weekend in Arizona….Me, Q, Tris, Jaz,  at my aunts with the other cuzzos we had my aunts street live Thursday, Friday nd Saturday! Came home Earlier today, and Celebrated my Great Papa, Cuzzo, and lil bro JoJo bday! Jumper was goin down!! haha dodgeball, basketball, football, and the Slide was tooo nice! LBC fam wassup!

Man I appreciate him so much for everything that he does for me….its more then expressed how much I appreciate him and feel for him…its like simple things, he’s always there has always had my back and keeps it real with me…what more can you ask for in an individual? one to just be there for you no matter what and continues to show his love…somethings just do not seem real…but its crazy how you can meet someone with soooooo many similarities as you and not get tired of them…can never stay mad at him cause he puts up with me, and my craziness! lol… wish somethings were different, but also Im just glad I met someone that means so much to me and always will no matter what…hes loved by this person :)!!!!

how did me and him clique like this, Why do I always get these butterflies when I am around him, Why does he make me smile and my heart beat faster every time I see him, get a call/text from him or hear him call my name ;), why is it that he is always on my mind, why do I love to make him smile or be there and support him…Ive never felt this way toward a guy in the years that I either dated/talked to other guys…guys want to hook up,date or be with me cause of who I am as a person, but it has always been a No. I never really honestly knew what I felt toward a guy until NOW! Its like Whenever I see him I just get this “Man I love you, and just want to be close to you!!” I love being near him, helping him, seeing his smile, laughing with him, and just knowing that he is always here for me! Its something that makes my day I loving seeing him happy…**sidenote lol, I get that jealous feeling though every time I see another girl make him laugh or smile every time…** I am really trying to say is I fell inlove with him!!!! and I cant stop loving him. I just love the fact that I can be real around him, I can trust and just be myself when I am with him! I love everything about this guy! Its just like damn I never would of thought I would be feeling like this at this age about someone, and everyday it seems like I fall more and more inlove with him!

now for the rest I shall tell him to his face!!! haha